last diary entry for test will be delted later lol
oh god after all these months i'm finally able to update this site again, uni is so time consuming that i just couldnt keep up at all with these website plus i was so bugged by the layout(which is still not done btw lol...) if i did some work this site it was always updating the main page but hey now im here and im really happy i missed having a place away from social media to vent about my feelings the way i want :ooo no matter how much i think about it social media really are plague and i hope this platform doesnt turn into that too ;; SO MOVING ON lets talk about everything that happened since the last entry here ;>> i start my second year of uni and by the time i post this it is officially over !! this year was a disaster due to my health issues, being on so many medication and still being on a pseudo stage of recovery i wasnt able to keep up with my work at all, i couldnt focus in class everything was blurry and i had zero energy to do anything it made me feel so horrible since it seemed like i was wasting away and i jsut couldnt do anything about it i felt like i was at fault ( i still do) but my doctors keep telling me that its completly normal that ifailed and htat ishouldnt stress myself too much over and just ofcus on my recovery so that next year hopefully i could be better but more time passed and more they werent sure that i was indeed going to fully recover so after some advices i might have to change majors which sucks... but i would still be studying something similar (computer science) just in a different uni it hurts so much but i guess its better than failling again which is AWFUL this year was such a rollercoaster of emotion that i ended up relapsing a few time (tho im doing better now) i just feel so lost especially now that i have to give up on my school which means i wont be able to study with half of my friends anymore it hurts cause i know if it wasnt for my stupid health issue i would do great but i just cant anymore my body is too weak its barely funcionning i just want to be able to get a diploma before its too late for ;; DONT WORRY I WONT GIVE UP !! i will try my hardest this summer to get better and have fun this year was rough but i wont let it ruin mysummer too !! i plan on doing so many thing like drawing coding and alll i cant wait to show you alll the thing i will do !! ⠀